Through California

We had a relaxing time with Jen's grandparents in California. A couple weeks if helping around the almond orchard, seeing the sights and just hanging out visiting. It sounds like they are going to try to make it up to Oregon for the Christmas Holidays, so that will be fun.
Jen and I haven't been with our families for Christmas in 3 years so we are looking forward to hanging out this year. Three years ago we were in Germany. Two years ago we stayed in our home in Baker City, Oregon and then last year we were in Wisconsin with Anarazell.

Speaking about Anarazell, we are swiftly coming upon her one year birth date...
Not really sure what that is going to look like. Then two weeks later will be when she died...again not really sure what to expect. Please keep us in your prayers.
We have a fake cell phone that Isabella runs around with and "calls" people on. The other day she was animatedly talking away on the phone saying stuff like, "Hi, Sweety...it is good to talk to you, how are you"? Then she ran to me with the phone and with eyes shining and told me it was Anarazell and asked if I wanted to talk to her.
Wow
To please my Isabella I was try to "talk" to my Anarazell on the phone...talk about hard! Jen just instantly started crying.
It is still hard and I figure it will be this way for sometime yet to come.
But at the same time...you still live. Sometimes I feel fake. Inside I am one way, and outwardly I am portraying something different, but that is life for now.