I haven't cried in a couple of days now. I sometimes wonder if something is wrong with me.
The nurse was asking Jen and I some questions today to finalize our plans for this week, and she looked at us and said..."You two seem to be taking it well, or is this just an act?" I didn't know what to say, I guess that it would have been a great opportunity to explain about the hope that is in us...But I just stood there...looked at my wife...and we both kinda smiled.
It is hard..and it is going to get harder...but God is with us, and we will be alright, and our Anarazell will be perfect soon...so everything is going to be ok...
Jen and I started a tradition with our Isabella a long time ago. Before we tuck her in at night, we sing her two songs, and pray with her. We sing songs that I learned as a kid...ones with lots of hand motions and things like that. It is a fun thing to do as a family. The other night, Jen and I decided to sing to Anarazell before we went home. So we started to sing the familiar song, "He's got the whole world in His hands". We got to the verse about the "little bitty baby" and we broke down. Then we started to sing,
"My God is so Great,
So strong and so mighty,
There's nothing my God can not do"
Hmmmm.
Jesus Loves me...
So different when we are singing it to our baby whose time here on earth will soon be over, and when we are just singing our 2 year old to sleep.
Our Gos IS so great.
He DOES have the babies in his hands.
Jesus DOES love me.
Alright enough for now.
All of our family is leaving tomorow, except for Jen's mom, who will stay until, whenever, to be with Jen.
It was good to visit and just sit and talk to family. Sad that it was so short.
I will especially miss my twin. Of all the people that I talk to, (except my wife), Jeremy knows me the best. We have chosen to walk different road here on earth, but we have always kept in touch and have always been there for each other. It was good to just hang out with him and talk through some stuff. I love you, Bro
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Justin & Jennifer,
I too am from Babyzone.com. I find myself checking your blog every night for updates. You and your family are in our thoughts and prayers and also in our church and my brother's church's prayers. Tell that nurse that it is God's Strength and Almighty Power that is getting you through this. Without him you would have nothing. I'm a firm believer that God will give you nothing more than you can handle and through him ALL things are possible. God is Good ALL the time and ALL the time God is Good. We will continue to uplift your family in the name of the Lord.
Sincerely,
Johanna, Kevin, & Haley
JoJoBZ@babyzone.com
I found your blog through another blog's link. I wanted you to know that I'm sitting at work in my cubicle crying for you and your whole family and their sorrow. I will continue to pray for stregnth for your family to get through this huge loss and grow closer together because of it. My thoughts and prayers are with you all.
My thoughts and prayers are still with ya'll.
Please don't hesitate to call. Anytime.
(((hugs)))
Jes
Hi Justin & Jenni,
Thanks for keeping us all updated. Lots and lots of prayers are being sent up for you all, for your comfort and strength and for God to be glorified.
It's interesting that last Sunday morning at the beginning of SS Dan led us in singing..."He's got the whole world in His hands," including "He's got Anarazell in His hands." Sometimes the simple truths we learn as children are really the most important, aren't they?
I'm sure the nurses and other medical people are aware that you love Jesus (at least if they have been around you and your family and friends for any length of time), so don't be too hard on yourself thinking you missed the opportunity to speak out.
We love you. Bev
Kinda weird how it seems when you're exactly where you are supposed to be in life that stuff like this happens?
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