Different Focus

Writing is good for me. I am finding that it is one of the ways that I am dealing with this grief. But I notice that depending on the time that I sit down to write, different aspects are in focus. At night, especially just after we come home from the NICU, I usually focus on how we are feeling and what this event is doing to us inside, emotionally. During the day I am a bit more composed and can focus more on what God is doing in us and through others. Not that the pain is gone, but I can see through it better...
So, when I get a chance I want to talk a bit about how God is working in and through others.
The first thing that I want to mention is the love and prayer that we are recieving. We are amazed, shocked and sometimes overwhelmed at the amount of people who have been praying for us, calling us, sending us gifts and cards, e-mailing us and commenting on our blog. It is amazing how the Body of Christ works.
We are staying with a couple that we have never meeet before this week. Tom and Grace have given us a cell phone to use, the keys to their house, money for stuff and comfort beyond belief...to someone who they didn't know, but needed help. When we found out our baby wasn't going to make it, no one from our family was in town, but this couple along with Brian and Julie, (who have been watching our daughter everyday) and Kathy, (whose house we were supposed to have Anarazell at) all came and just loved us. Talked, read the Bible, brought food and coffee and held our baby. It was like we had known them all our whole lives and it was the most natural thing to have them there with us.
We got a message on our voice mail the other day from a couple who are complete strangers and have lived through the NICU life and just "happened" to come acrossed our blog...(maybe God's work here?) and called us to say that they are praying for us and if we need to talk, they are here. I was amazed that someone would have enough courage to call a complete stranger and tell them this, and then I recognized the area-code from Oregon... our home state! What are the odds that someone from home with the same experience as us right now would stumble acrossed our blog?
We have gotten money from people, that we know for a fact, have no money. We have been with some of these people in the training for several years now, and we know their financial state...and they are sending what they have to us. Amazing. A church that we have never been to sent us several hundred dollars. Never stepped foot in their door before.
What else...Calls, comment, prayers, e-mails, cards, money, food, a place to live...God is taking care of us. It is like He knows that we need to go through this, but He will make it as easy as possible.
Well, it is late, or early, depending on how you look at it. Tomorrow is a new day with tons of new challenges...
Just wanted to let everyone know that We see that God is in control, and just to encourage you a bit in this, as so many of you have encouraged us...