Saturday, December 03, 2005

Reaching Overwhelmed...

...or did we past that point some time ago?
Family is making their appearance now. Jen's mom and dad came yesterday, her brother is on his way today, three of my family will come tomorrow. While it will be good to see everyone, it is different since we aren't at our own house, and they are all staying at different places, and our schedual gets moved around alot...Good but stressful. We miss just coming in and sitting with our Anarazell and just talking to her. Now the room is always full, pictures are being taken like crazy. Don't get me wrong, I am not saying that I wish they all weren't here, it is just different.
Next week is coming up quick. All kinds of issues are running through my head. When can the family sit down with the doctors and ask their questions? When should we have our "going away" party? When should Jen and I come in and let our baby go home? Who do we ask to drive us to the hospital...wait for us...and take us home after she is gone? How do you ask someone to do that?
And then the big question...what then?
Jen asked when were we going home, and I asked, "Where is home"?
Our family and alot of church family is in S.Oregon, but we haven't lived there for over 5 years now. We loved our time in Eastern Oregon, but what is there for us now? We have a church family just over the border in Idaho...but we have never lived there...We have only been in Missouri for a few monthes now, so even though most of our stuff is there, we don't consider it home.
I guess it is too early yet...It is hard to make plans for dinner, let alone for that far in advanced.
So all we have settled on so far is staying at the house we are at through Christmas break...and see what happens from there.
Lord willing in the next month or so we will get some direction on what future plans hold...
I am assuming that life continues to go on...I just don't know how.
Just something else for everyone to pray for...

3 comments:

MattyP said...

Hey your phone is turned off dude. I can't get a hold of you.

Jenn said...

My heart is breaking for you.
The worst feeling in the world is leaving the hospital for good. The pamphlets that the hospitals give out are no comfort to a parents grief.
I pray that you will find comfort in each other - in family and friends. There is a huge temptation to withdraw - to want to hide and be alone, and that only makes it harder.
Be prepared that some people will not know what to say, or do or how to help. And some people will say the absolute worst things. God knows your sorrow. I wish I could simply be there to be a shoulder for you to cry on.
Anarazell is a beautiful baby - I've never heard that name before, it's very pretty. Does it have a special meaning?

Anonymous said...

Just wanted to say that we keep you in our thoughts and prayers. Our church and our families are praying for you as well. Elisabeth and Samuel greet you.
Love,
Thomas & Petra